A letter from Aug 22, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Hi, how are you? Did you finish your BS in Psychology course? I was rooting for you, you know? You will be successful, claim it. Whatever happens, you will be. Nonetheless, I am proud of whatever you've accomplished now, you have a long way to go and a lot of time on your hands. Slow down for a minute and take your afternoon naps as often as you need. Don't abuse yourself too much, you've already conquered that phase away from your household. It's really adulthood now, isn't it? Are you eating well and drinking vitamins? What's your plan ahead? You have 4 years to find a job, take your masters, or go to law school, either of those will be spent in the Philippines because of the DOST agreement. I know it's sad but you can do this! You've already done so much, you can do so much more than you think! Never let yourself be enclosed in a box, you can never grow there. The world is vast enough to explore and have space to breathe. Find your place in the open field where the most beautiful wildflowers bloom. By the way, how's Mom? Are you making her happy and safe? Your 19-year-old self will be mad at you if you are avoiding her and not updating her on your whereabouts. Remember why you're there, remember the people you are living your life for. 5 years ago from where you are now, you wanted to die and she told you to live for her. If you dont see anything in the world worth living for, there is someone always waiting for you to come home. Home, Mom is home. Visit her always and try to spoil her with little things. She loves those as much as the big things. Are you now celebrating her birthdays? She deserves those birthdays, remind her that you are also thankful that she exists as much as she is thankful that you do. How's Dad? Is he still a jerk or did the final phase that Mom always talks about finally come? Nonetheless, watch his health so there will be no regrets in the future. How are your sisters? Finally successful too? I always believed that we all can achieve higher than we have always dreammed of. Never change, Micha. They love it when you talk to them and offer them reality-based words of wisdom. They are fast learners, maybe much faster than you. Never get tired of them as much as Mom never got tired of you. You own her that in the very least. L.I.V.E amisdt the difficulties, chaos and bad omens. Live amisdt the questions, uncertainty, and criticisms of the world. You only have yourself, do not make yourself hate you. Make yourself happy and I hope you also find that happiness in helping others. I'm proud of you always, you are braver than you've thought you are. A fighter, dreamer, and a writer. Write again, you always loved that. 5 years after, I believe that love never left. :") You in infinities, Jhen with an H