A letter from Aug 22, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Is life doing better? It’s not doing terrible now but I think my friends are slowly growing away from me. No one asks to hang out anymore. I sorta feel like I’m all by myself and right now I think mom is my best friend. She gets mad at me and yells though and I feel like I try to make things between us better, and I think I’m making progress but sometimes she makes me feel like I’m not good enough. Anyways, I haven’t seen anyone in about a month other than that one day I went to recording. Is that still going? I feel kinda lost and small. Sometimes I wish something bad would happen to me so people would pay attention and actually listen. Are we friends with sabina? We aren’t right now because I think she’s afraid of shayne getting upset. She’s told me she wants to be. Shayne rants about how sabina is selfish and stuck up. I think both of them are very dramatic and I can see why she’d say that. When we were still friends, sabina would say similar things about shayne. That was the same day she told me I was becoming her only friend. I know what that feels like now, it doesn’t feel good. I remember the day I was talking to my therpist about how I think sabina doesn’t appreciate me, and when I walked out of the building I saw paragraphs from sabina about how amazing I was and how she couldn’t lose me. I felt so happy and finally like someone appreciated me and ignored all my problems. I’m gonna stop ranting now. Hope you get this letter, future me.