A letter from Aug 18, 2022

An Open letter for myself and everyone; TW//DEATH Death is somehow exciting and scary. Trust me, that's how i feel about leaving the world behind. Some of us were waiting if how long our time and life will lasts. and, most of us took their lives early and in unexplained matter. I will tell you why 'Death' is something you should and shouldn't be afraid of. I hope you are ready to read this. Death is exciting because we know that in some point in our life-- we wanted to disappear. When you encounter the time where you're looking at your dead body lying in somewhere and you're just a soul who's in between of happy and sad, you'll realized that once you're dead, there's no coming back. Being dead means having a freedom away to the things that you used to hate when you're alive in this world; and that's when you realize that "death is exciting" and can be a happiness to our inner self. Now, lets talk why death is scary. According to google, after a person will turned into soul-- If heaven and hell really exist, we sadly lose some of our memories; the good and bad ones. To be honest, even life really fucked our lives when we were still living in earth, we can say that even in difficult times, we also experienced a good and unforgettable memories with a people that we met and contribute a big part on us. But sadly, we cannot bring those memories with us in another dimension of world. We will turn into soul and/or dust without memories with us. Those good memories with the amazing people will only remain in this living world to the people that are still alive and mourning to our funeral. And, that's when you realized that "death is scary". We can be away to the people and things that caused a lot of pain to us when we were still alive but we cant have the good and amazing people with us when we were about to leave this world. Knowing these makes me stuck in the feeling of being excited and scared about facing our last time-- DEATH.