A letter from Aug 17, 2022

future jane, AYYY we’re both freshman ! how does it feel ? where are you going to college ? what do you wanna major in ? ARE we going to college ? i have so many questions, and sometimes i think how strange it is that i’m writing a letter to myself, almost like a time capsule, that i’ll read in a few years and not give it a second thought until then. i feel like i mostly write it because in reality, all i want is a response, which i know is impossible, but it’s just that flicker of hope that i’m following my dreams. do we still love one direction ? HAVE THEY REUNITED ?! i really hope so. i’m also curious- have you come out to mom and dad ? are we sure about our ********* yet ? right now i’m not sure i am but i know i like girls because i have to freaking have feelings for one. yesterday was the first day of academy and i hope i’m only there for this year. i hope the first day of college goes/has gone better. i feel like i have so much to tell you but i don’t even know how to say it all. ill start writing regularly so i can say more. it’s so therapeutic being able to just spill my life to myself. i guess i really am my own therapist haha anyways, i’m gonna go now because i don’t wanna take too much of my busy college self’s time, so i’ll write later ! ps. one final question: do i love myself yet ?