A letter from the Past

Dear FutureMe, Hey, Well it has been a year so maybe you forgot something from the Past..Well as usual i am gonna talk about what happen between Doctor And I... It was my fault I broke my own self because of too much expectations And overthinking and For Being Assuming...but who knows he never told me what he truly feels.. After the Incident.....before everything went down hill...after what happened at December 16 2021 I called him that Night Because i missed him..But before that..what happen on September The Relation between doc and i already Change Because of Misunderstandings..So I called him On December 16 Hoping he would call me back...i was lucky actually because he called back but what he ask me was unexpected..he ask if where i am instead of asking why did i called..our conversation went on..im sure you remember it all to well since I already give you a lil detail...After that He Threatened Me Some words just because I didn’t show up..i stood him up...he said that i would regret for now showing up...After that He Change his Number And Deactivated All his Socmeds... Even till now i am still carrying the guilt that i felt..But it was 3 am and i am just 15 years old..there are many scenarios that were running through my mind...I was afraid What things he could do....thats why I didn’t show up...i followed What my mind were telling me Than What my heart wants...Tho i never know what would or could happen to me that day...Still i just want to say sorry to him..but I couldn’t do that now....So if you ever saw him one day walking down the street or driving his car Please Tell him what i truly felt... -Athena