A letter from Aug 09, 2022

Architect, Hi Architect! I know by this time, you already graduated from your university. All those sleepless nights been worth it by now. Cheers to our degree! This week has been rough. You had a heartbreak. The same man that you thought will never do bad to you, cheated on you TWICE. You wanted to change him, get back to him because you don't want that feeling that is eating you inside. You cannot cry in front of your family because you don't want them to get angry to your man. You are saving him still even though it hurts you a lot. You wake up early in the morning, 3am, 4am? You'll go downstairs while all the lights were turned off, you'll see yourself crying and begging God for help. You wanted to scream but you can't. After an hour you'll go back to sleep like nothing happened and will wake up almost lunch time. Still tired. Your family need not to know. Worst is, you can't have the explanation. He ain't trying to answer your questions. He doen't want to connect. No messages from him. Such a petty, you wanted to fix the things that you didn't break at the first place. He doesn't have any initiative. With a large hope, I believe that you choose the right decision. God will surely lead you the way. And I'm proud that through all that pain, you choose to be kind. Though revenge visited your mind from time to time, it doesn't win over your principles. You've got a lot love to give to the world and I am looking forward that you are giving that now to the most deserving man that God reserved for you. I love you, Nica! Keep going. Keep hurting until it hurts no more.