A letter from Aug 07, 2022

Dear isabelle, belle, or whatever name you prefer in 2025, it’s been more than a year since i’ve been in in 6g or 7g, and it has been a ride. i have loved siddharth for more than a year, but i don’t even know if i moved on. and recently i think i fell in love with my best friend, rayu (vretika). i don’t know how i feel towards them but i feel everything towards them. but i feel like, no i KNOW they are moving on from me already, i should be happy for that but why do i feel hurt because of that? future me, please tell me you moved on from this, it’s alright if you havent but please try to! i do hope i am better in the future. if i’m not, isabelle, just know i’m always here for you. yes i know i’m you but the younger me will always be there for you no matter what. no matter what hardships you go through or things you’ve done, i will always ALWAYS be there for you, because i know how it feel like to have no one. and do not bottle up your emotions belle, it’s the one thing i want you to fix. and know that i love you and i’m always here. it really does hurt, doesn’t it? i’m so lonely and i have no one to talk to, be happy with, laugh with, or even hang out with. i just want someone to be my friend, anyone! anything just not to be lonely. i’m really hoping that 7th grade, second semester, won’t be bad like last 2nd semester where i went through my first unrequited love. i just don’t want to get my second unrequited love. i just realised, it’s always summer when i realise my feelings for someone. it’s weird, it really is. i hope nothing bad happens to you belle. the day you are getting this mail or letter, is on your 16th birthday, so happy bday belle<3 i love you and appreciate you! and i wish you have a great day and cake <3 you have now come to the end of this letter !! i’m sorry for venting and doing all that ****, i just have no one to vent too, so yeah. but anyways! have a good day belle and how’s 10th grade?? love, belle