A letter from Aug 01, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Hey, how's life going? Can you believe this is our 3-year anniversary of this letter?! It's probably very likely that you don't even remember writing this message, but we'll see. I'm not 100% what I am supposed to be writing in this letter but I'm just going to go with it. To just Jog our memories a little bit it is august 1, 2022, I am at Walden residential ED treatment, our favorite place :). I highly doubt we have forgotten. I'm hoping and. praying that all this work and pain that I have been going through has hopefully paid off and made your life as easier as it can be. We are struggling with so much anxiety, negative thoughts, sadness, and depression. One of my favorite MHCs Ava had said that "it takes 6 months, 6 months for your life to be magical". Was she correct in saying that? I hope so. My mind keeps telling me that I will be happier with my ED, that it will be sustainable. But I know that it's not true and that I will only feel worse. I hope that we aren't going to make the wrong decision. And even if we did, I'm here to remind you of how miserable we were and are, so don't throw away all your hard work. I hope that the future me has found happiness and is at peace in her mind. The Future me I see has found her passions in life and has found the people who value her and treat her the way that she deserves to be treated. She has read hundreds of books that have made her eyes light up and her heart pound and flutter with happiness. I hope that I have learned to love myself and treat myself with respect. Currently, I am struggling to find reasons why I should continue with my life, and I can only hope that I have found my purpose and a reason to stay, to live. I'm here to tell you to fully embrace every part of yourself, and that you are worthy to have everything. You are enough, thousand times enough. We owe it not only to anyone else but to ourselves to try to live the fullest life we can and be as present as possible in every little moment. Just remember, YOU GOT THIS. Stay close to the people who you love and who love you back, know you are never alone and never give up.