A letter from Jul 28, 2022

Dear future Me! I wrote this on Thursday , 28 July 2022 at 8:48 pm. I'm just casually sitting in the sala while kuya and ate Hazel are in their room. Mama and papa are in Casinglot cause mama have client which is si Nanay. I just want to say that I'm really proud of what you have achieved in your present days. I'm assuming that you're still finding a right job for you, a job that considers any medical issue. Writing this is like a mix emotion HAHAHA I have so many things I want to talk ryt now but I tend to run out of words. Eitherway, I'm really torn ryt now whether to pursue BSME or BSCPE. But yea I know you didn't regret having that degree of yours(hopefully). However, I feel the discouragement and hopelessness cause I don't know if I'll get a job which u know I just said it earlier. Furthermore, I wonder if u did seek a hepatologist Hehe cause u really want it, don't you? You even planned to make an appointment albeit you don't have enough money and guts HAHA HOW ARE YOUUU?? HOW'S IT GOING?? OK RA KA? NAKALOVELIFE NA BA? REGULAR NA BA IMONG PERIOD? I'm utterly worried for yiuu though. Unta di na kayu ka ka insecure sa imong dgway. Kay karun ok rman ko pero agkainsecure kos akong mata legs, all certain parts of my body but I'm still striving, grinding, enduring all this misery. To mama: MAAAAAAAAAA I LOVE YOUUUUU(why da heck am I emotional ryt now, I mean got teary eventhough she's here, alive and happy, but, I suppose it's because she keeps always saying that she might not make it in my college years😭, Stoooooooop) HI MA I-(Oh no, kahilakon kk) WANT YOU TO BE AT NEXT TO ME WHEN I GRADUATE. MAY GOD BESTOW YOU LIFE FULL OF BLISS WITH US. MAY HE GAVE YOU MANY YEARS SO THAT I WILL BE ABLE TO RECIPROCATE AND PAMPER YOU. SANA IN NEXT LIFE IKAW PA AKONG MAMA(😭) WHAT AN IRONY HAHA CAUSE WHEN I'M SO DOWN I KEEP SAYING NA BECAUSE OF HER I HAVE THIS INSECURITIES WHICH IT ALMOST ****** ME, YES!, I ALMOST TOOK THIS EFFING LYF I HAVE. Anyway, alagaa si mama ug tarung ha ug si papa kay karun super kayu sila gakayud. Uy life is effing hard gyd so grind lang AJA!, keep fighting baya ha, ayaw pagsurrender ug dali. Cge bye for now, don't worry there's anotha message coming ahead. Bye Kay!