I Loved you now, I love you now, and I will love you now...

Nicholas, It's 4:54pm on a cold, windy, cloudy Tuesday in February. I'm downtown in Savannah at Metro, a coffee shop where I'm laying on a couch, drinking coffee, and writing an e-mail to my highschool boyfriend...and if fortune for the future is in my favor...my husband as well. I'm writing this for three reasons 1) I'm curious to see if this actually works...it's a pretty neat idea. 2) I want you to remember this. Right now. This moment. This feeling. Us. 3) Most importantly, I want to tell you I love you. You're my first true love. And I can't say right now if you'll be my last, but I don't need to...you already know the answer to that. So, please...wherever you are right now. Wherever. Take this moment. Take it to reflect. To remember...that in 2006, there was a girl. her name was Jewelia. and you loved her. And she loved you. with every fiber of her being. No matter what happens to us or who comes along...I need you to remember this. We were different. Special. Something that can't be duplicated. Something great. Something wonderful. Something beautiful. Eternal. It doesn't matter what happens, what happens to either of us. The love between us is eternal. It's already been set in stone. Because time is not linear this moment will live on. It's hard to grasp...but you will be leaving to move to NYC a week from tomorrow. I don't know how to react. I don't know how I'm going to handle it. I'm scared for me without you. I'm scared for you alone up there. But mostly...I'm scared for us. And this is not a concern I've often voiced. I don't want you to leave with any bad feelings or regrets. I'm happy for you. This is an exciting time in your life. You're young, you have your career and future all layed out in front of you, waiting for you to follow. My only hope is that I'm a part of it. Please tell me if I am. I love you, Nick. ~Jewelia