A letter from Jul 17, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Hi… I know I haven’t written to you in a while. I guess I haven’t been ok and haven’t been writing at all. We’re y’know now. The only good thing that’s happened to us lately is Jasper liking us back and asking us out. My fear is that it’s not gonna last since she’s my first love and first loves never ever last. I know it’s gonna hurt if they break up with us. Please tell me she doesn’t. I know you can’t answer me but it would really help if you could. Have we come out as lesbian or demiromantic? Have we come out as non-binary yet? I feel like I always ask questions when I write to you. We’ll be 16 when you get this. Have mom and “him” divorced? I really hope they do. He’s such a bad person and it just hurts me. I want mom to be happy but at what cost for the boys mental health. I don’t care about my own. I mean why would I, it’s already horrid. It’s never gonna be good. I’m insecure and dysphoric. I’m going insane and i’m y’know. I hate everything about myself and I don’t know what to do about it. I love you.