A letter from Jul 16, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Today is the middle of summer and I'm going into Junior year. I have 2 irl friends who talks to me, Elle and Ishi. Ishi is more like an online friend because i haven't seen them since 7th grade but it's close enough. I haven't done anything with my summer because half of the people who i was friends with in the school year haven't talked to me ONCE this summer. I hope 18 year old Sami has friends. And a job. I hope you're not suicidal anymore and finally get help. I don't want therapy but I know i need it. Maybe in the future I'll finally go? Please don't self harm. It only makes you feel better for a minute, which I'm sure you already know. I don't want to live right now but maybe my life is better as an adult. I don't like mentioning people because it seems like everytime i do they leave me, but I love jo. She's my favorite friend and if anything happened to her that would be my last straw. I currently have a crush on Maya, that's been going for like a year. She doesn't like me back tho. So please tell me you don't still like her. Speaking of crushes, do you have a girlfriend? But I know I'm questioning right now, so maybe a boyfriend? I hope so because i don't wanna go all of high school with no sweetheart. And have you had ***? Are you a top of bottom? Did you ever buy a strap on? And do you remember... the vibrator incident? I hope you don't because i sure do and i get flashbacks when i ****. If you go to college i hope you live out the dream I wanted! It's a really bad dream but please have *** at least once. And i hope you have a nice or hot roommate 😊 Do you still like furry stuff? Right now I'm OBSESSED with the Delicat species and I have like, over 50 of them. Remember to check toyhouse! And i know warrior cats isn't technically furry but do they still wirte books? Did you ever finish your story about Creekfur and the tree clans? I hope you get away from your mom. She's homophobic and abusive and as much as i lover her please get away from her crazy ***. If you have more money DO NOT SPEND IT ALL ON DEVIANTART POINTS AND CANDY. that's what i did this year and now I'm broke. Please actually save I don't have anymore to say, i hope all is well :) Try not to **** yourself. 👍