A letter from Jul 14, 2022

Dear FutureMe, A lot of changes happened this year. Some friendships came to an end, and others grew stronger. It's hard seeing them go, but it's also relieving. It was like I was holding my breath for so long that it became customary to do so, and now I can breathe. But this so-needed air is more challenging, more demanding on my emotional health and maturity. I hope that we grow to love ourselves more, stop allowing others to take advantage, and learn how to deal with difficult emotions without wanting to give up. Despite the hardships, this year was good for us. It gave us change and growth. I've learned to accept and welcome change and a more understanding view of the world and others. Last year we were very overwhelmed in college, so we decided to give it some time. And I'm so grateful that we did that! We achieved what we wanted for so so long. The freedom to be ourselves and to finally live our lives. This is the year everything changed, and it was, and still is, terrifying, and yet I'm happier and more fulfilled than I ever was. Moving and "starting over" won't be easy, and we will endure some hard times. But I know deep in my heart that we are on the right path. I know where I want to be and will do my best to get us there. I hope that you do too. Don't ever give up. Keep trying, keep living and keep evolving. On another note, let's talk about less important stuff. Relationships. Do not accept less than you deserve!!! This year, a blast from the past made an appearance, reminding us of what WE WON'T ENDURE. It was embarrassing that we thought of going back to abuse because we thought it was all we deserved. We were obviously wrong. I want us to be loved, appreciated, embraced, and understood. I want us to know what love is. I want us to be with someone who'll tell us how lucky they are. I want us to live all of our wildest fantasies because that's what we deserve. If you ever ignore this, go ahead and slap yourself for me, please, and thank you! Goals that I've set for you < 3 Study hard and get good grades Finish uni Start masters Go to Amster*** Go to Paris with a lover Learn how to drive Try and still be friends with F ( I know she is super effing annoying, but she is worth it) Shower s * x Bdsm ( naughty naughty) 3some Save a good amount of money Stay healthy Stop taking Zoloft Be emotionally stable Read 100 books (I'll start today, the ones I've read before today don't count ) Find the right style for us Dump toxic ******* Nurture healthy ******* Ibiza with friends Nice with lover