A letter from Jul 11, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Currently, 11.07.2022. I'm a mess. I broke up with Nóri a month ago, on the 7th of June. I'm working for the ****** company, and it's greatly affecting my mental health, and I think it is one of the reasons for the breakup. I think I am giving up too hard. I don't think I will consider a relationship serious anymore, until we get to the "moving in" stage. It's not healthy to attach myself to those in an immature mindset still. I think I have attachment issues, going back to my childhood and any abandonment destroys me. I plan to see a therapist about this. Things aren't too bad, I got the big pay raise and things are looking up finally on the financial front. Maybe I will actually manage to achieve my goal before 2025. Also I'm learning a lot on the engineering front and I am more confident by the day. Everyday is a new challenge, and even though it wrecks me, it's also making me stronger. I'm trying to brute force being more social. It's having mixed results, but I'm also excited about it. Trying hard not to get attached to anyone though. I'm also exploring my bisexuality a bit more, actually the ex, helped me accept it more, and I'm eternally thankful to her for that. I excluded my family totally, I'm cutting out the toxicity from my life. I'm not talking to J, U or N. Even though I desperately crave it. I'm still blocked because of the various fights. I hope you managed to start college, doing your job without a degree probably helped you out a lot, but you still need the paper. I hope that you're at least still working as an engineer though. You love it, it fulfills you, you we're always a smartass. Chase that dream. And I hope you're on the road to become a millionaire. You want to be successful and to retire early and enjoy life stress free. If you become a billionaire buy a yacht and make all your exes swim after it. And I also hope that you managed to escape this ******** of a country, or to get to the top of the scheme. Whichever feels closer to working. But, most of all. I hope you haven't lost your character. I hope you're surrounded by people who love you, and giving them the love they deserve. I hope you can still see the good in people, and that you're not a cynical *******. Make them laugh, make them cry, make them worry, make them discover. Show them life and let them show life to you. And say hi to A for me. Hope you guys are still thick as thieves. Make me proud