A letter from Jul 11, 2022

Dear me I've been through a lot right now as you most definitely remember. Today is the 11th of July 2022 and I'm 15 years old. So yeah, I'm in highschool and just finished the Sophomore year. Some things have happened until this day. And I'll start by talking about Afonso. As you know, I met him in Braga two weeks ago. It was quite surreal, but as time passed that day I was realising how special he was. When we were having a frappé, I was sharing my eyes with his all the time. But then, when we had to say goodbye to each other, only me and you know how hard it was. I never got to kiss him or say anything to him because I thought it was better not to, I wasn't understanding how hard it was gonna be to be with him again since we live in different cities, I was just into him. I still am. But not only am I having feelings for him, I am already heartbroken because I can't just take a bus and meet him. I've got no money to go anywhere, I can't be with him. I didn't want to admit it during these two weeks, but today I'm realising that even though it felt right (and it feels right), we don't have the chance to be together. I was craving for it to happen, I was trying to find a way to be in his arms again but I can't help but think that I will have to stop. I can't do it, but I feel like I have to. So, since you will be 16 when you read this, I hope you get to tell me how things worked out. I also wanna talk about my sister. She left home last year and never talked to you or your parents ever again. It's like if she wanted to die for us. Sometimes I still have dreams of her being around. And I'm so sad she is not here to see how different I am. I don't really have anybody to share my deepest stuff with. Well, when you read this it'll be summer once again. So I just want you to know that as hard as some things seem to be, we will always find a way out. And let's see how things go with Afonso, because man you really fell in love with him. I love you Vasco