it's from the past!!

Dear FutureMe, Found this nifty site so I thought I'd send myself some stuff. I'm setting this to be sent to me in 2009. here's to hoping that by the time you receive this email, you will be out of college. Not only that, but you'll have a decent job. My life ambitions as of 2/2/2006. A husband who makes as much as I will (which will be around 50k+) and is light spirited with a good sense of humor, but a serious streak that will allow him to be a good father. A nice house, nothing fancy though, but I don't expect you to have this by now. You probably just got out of college. Or are in your last semester. I wonder if you're planning on getting a studio apartment and living off peas for a while to pay off your debts like I tell everyone I will? Will you settle down? Or get a crazy job that makes you travel lots? I dare not even suggest that you haven't found a job, or aren't going to. Because both you and I know that that is unacceptable. How was Japan? It must have been interesting. I really want to go, but I can't decide if I am going for next spring semester, or the following entire year. It's looking like it'll be next spring semester though. Tonight I got rejected by a guy I really liked. I think I liked him more than anyone else I've ever felt anything for. "I'm not looking for a serious relationship right now." He says.. How many times did I use that line freshman year? And now here it is, being used on me, the one time I really care. Go figure. I imagine by the time you get this, you won't even have thought about that person in a long long time. I think after I write this, I'm going to send a second copy to the me that's a year from now. It'll be interesting to see if my goals are still on track. Do you still like anime? Japan? Computers? Books? Comfort? Kinship? Martial arts? Are you still terrified of disappointing your father? Do you still totally dislike interacting with your mother? Have you let go of the hardships of your childhood yet? Do you still have problems talking about your deepest emotions to any living being? Have you found someone to love you yet? Are you still fat? Did you do anything to your hair? Is it its natural dark brown? Did you continue to dye it dark red? Do you still play World of Warcraft? Have you gotten back into the SCA yet? Has your dad married the woman he loves yet, and made your family whole again? My hopes and dreams I remind you of. I mostly ask so many questions out of fear that you will have lost sight in what I believe in, and what is important to me now. Perhaps the me of a few years from now will have an entirely different belief system and set of life goals. Perhaps not. Are you even still alive? Who knows what the future holds... Right now you have a job working with pbl, an independent study working on the japanese dept's website, you're going to group therapy, and possibly individiual therapy(haven't decided that one yet), as well as the PR for the anime club, and maybe also joining the japanese culture club. I'm about to become the director of the PBL consultants. I wonder how that will go? You doubt yourself because of your appearance. We both know you're not shallow, but don't let the physical world around you phase you! Whether you're still fat or not, have confidence in yourself. There is so much I could say to you, but I shall leave it at this. No matter where you are, or what you're doing, by anything that is powerful out there, I hope you're happy...