A letter from Jun 14, 2022

Dear FutureMe, My problems that I hope I over come 1) Problem I live as a 1st generation and half white and Filipina girl and I’ve been getting judged a lot about my race… I was always judged on my culture and was stereotyped all the time. I hated myself and my white side and wished I was different. I cry about at night knowing I can’t change and I always have to deal with this. I thought to myself I just hate my race. When I try to talk to someone close to me about they always same “okay then stop caring, it’s no big deal”. To this day July 14th 2022 I always think I was a bad culture and trash even though I was half Filipino, a beautiful culture, I still hated myself because I look mainly white. I wanted to change everything about my physical appearance. I am half white and Filipino and I look mainly white. During this time people hate on white people because what they did in the past. I don’t like how they treat me but I also know I deserve this and shouldn’t complain. Please stop the hate for all races… I don’t like it. 2) problem My mom kinda left me and i have to live in a one bed room house that is really small… I’m great ful but I’m kinda sad because I don’t have a room and I can’t get the shower walls wet… I love my life but I don’t like having to wake up everyday at 4am to drive to my aunt in uncles house so not be home alone. Please just get me a bedroom and I will be very great ful. I love you and thank you dad 3) problem I don’t know, I love my dad so much but sometimes it is stressful because he is so nice and but he can’t be soooo mean when he is mad. He has so filter and most of the time it is nice but when he is mad at me he gets really mean. I get really scared sometimes that even writing this I start crying because I don’t want it to be this way. I always cry when he gets mad, even when it’s no big deal and he gets mad I always shut down and cry and stop thinking I would rather die than be here or even think about going to extreme problems for me just for my dad to not get mad at me. I get so scared that even with little normal mistakes for my age that I start to have a mental break down and hate myself. I love my dad but I ask that he stop getting mad at me and mean at me for simple mistakes. Please have at least one thing changed when you read this… please?