A letter from May 29th, 2022

Dear Melike, I hope this message finds you well. I am writing to you on this day, Saturday May 28th 2022. Two days prior on the 26th, we had a falling out that was solely predicated on my inability to accept a choice you made to walk away from our relationship. Today I wrote you via iMessage and received no response. I even tried to contact you through Snapchat but no avail. Initially I was regretful and hurt. I wanted to message you so badly and ask you why. I wanted answers so badly. I wanted to pour my emotions out for the second time. Instead something came over me and brought me here. I am now writing this to you so you would know how true it is. I realize now what you have done and why. Mel thank you for being the only one strong enough to make a decision that was truly best for both of us. I realize now that you knew this choice was what I needed in order to heal from our relationship. I wasn’t strong enough to walk away from our love although it was slowly ******* me. You saw my suffering and knew you couldn’t give me what I needed, so you let me go out of love. I see that now don’t you worry. I am a work in progress and at the time of writing this, I am very broken. But worry not because I am a child of God and I’ve found my identity in him. I will be whole once again I promise you. God has spoken to my heart and he’s called me to focus on him. I have faith that we will cross paths again and you can tell me everything when we do. I know I wasn’t a perfect boyfriend but I tried my best. My dream was to love you perfectly and have a fairytale ending, but admittedly it blinded me from seeing what you wanted and what I needed. God is telling me today that he is already ahead of you. If at the time of reading this you have been hurt or you’re still searching for that someone, know that my doors have never closed. At this point, I should have received my LLB and finished my two years in London, just getting back to Toronto. Believe that I have matured and grown a lot from when we’ve last spoke and I would love to catch up and grab an iced coffee if you’re still into that. Yours Truly -China Pup