A letter from May 3rd, 2022

Dear FutureMe, March 12 2020-May 24 2022, I can't believe that I will be starting high school in a few months. I thought this day would never come. I can't believe that next year I will be a sophomore. Covid already took 3 years of my life. 2 weeks off….. No school….. Online class….. Seeing my friends every day….. Long break… I know that things have been kinda rocky, but I hope you're doing better. How is it covid? How is everything going with getting vaccines and what not? Oh, how did vaccinations work? Is covid still a thing? Are masks mandatory? Is Ukraine still a problem? DID I HAVE A GLOW UP? Do you still like Tyler? Have you dated or kissed anyone yet? Did you make the cheer team? How old is judy? Is judy, Atreal okay/how are they? How has things been since atreal went to collage? Did you get into yale or any ivy schools? What collage will you be going into? Are you still friends with Peyton, Gabby, Claire, Mackenzie, Ajani, Lamine, Chris, Kennedy, Ariam, Tshesang and more? How is Tshesang ? Is she doing better? How was Highschool? I hate middle school. I can't wait to leave this place. The drama, the people, the teachers, the annoying 6th and 7th graders, the rumors , ***** threats, slow walkers, crying in the classroom, being overwhelmed by everything, stress, test anxiety, fake friends, fights, bad grades and getting dentition in 6th grade. All this but I am going to still miss middle school. Why? Maybe because I met some of my really good friends who I do not want to lose in a few months, I met teachers I really trust and do not want to leave them, or maybe because I do not want to think about the future right now. In 4 years I will be graduating and have to figure out what to do with my life. If I pick the wrong thing, I will be a disappointment, but if I pick the right thing that does not make me happy, I will regret it, but my parents will adore me for it. There are thousands of careers. What do I pick? What will make my parents and I happy while making money? How will getting a job affect my future? Will I have enough money to support my kids in the future if I have any? What if I am a failure and all my friends become successful? What if… all these questions and they are still unsolvable and unanswered. What will I do? All I can do is live for the future and I want to make these last few weeks memorable until I leave middle school, even though there were some good and bad parts in general, I will miss middle school. I don't want to forget how many times I've cried, How many times I've laughed so hard that I got hiccups, How many times my friendship was ruined over something stupid, How many times I refused to eat school lunch because I was/ still am a picky eater, How many times I would distract myself in class because I did not want to pay attention, How long I would take on a test because I did not understand the problem. I might not be perfect because I sure did make a lot of mistakes, like liking Aiden (Mse), Cole (Mse), Zach (MIddle school east), MItchell, Jaiden, Joey n, Tyler all throughout middle school, Not trying sports earlier, Going to friend group to friend group because I did not know where I belong, Overall I will miss middle school for the goods and even the bads because the bad parts are what impacted me and changed me for the better. I am no longer that cringy, shy, bullied, short, ugly, not gone through *******, have not started shaving, Tic tok obsessed, never tried and bad student anymore. Life is full of challenges. There are different hard obstacles, but I can not quit. Quitters never win and winners never quit. It is okay to be vulnerable, to ask for help, to re-strategize and retry but NEVER QUIT. By the time I am reading this again it would be sent out and I will not remember this or will lol. I am so scared for high school what if I dont have the same class with my friends or lose most of them and going to school with older people that can drive is scaryy but I hope I lost weight and look like a skinny queen and evan pay for what he said in Spanish class today. I hope I dated someone at least lol anyways I am also scard that if I fail a grade it will affect my life and what school I go to. Good luck no matter what (Even if I picked a lot of bad decisions just know that I love you and know your worth so don do any thing stupid lol ifykyk :).