A letter from Apr 23rd, 2022

Dear FutureMe, where can I start? In these night i'm crying, crying for don't knowing my life meaning. What should I do? Why my life seem meaningless? Why I can't find happiness? What I want to do in the future? What's my favourite hobby? So many questions and no answer. I envy other people life. What I can see is just they go out with friends, chill out, have party... their life is so perfect. Why can't I have a life like theirs? Maybe because i'm me? I'm so sad. Knowing that crying is useless, knowing that i'm powerless. I'm so tired of all the mess my classmate do with me. Why would they make fun of someone? Do they think they're funny? All I can see is a bunch of clown, an entire circus. Hypocrite and selfish people who search to use you. Because these I recently think to leave school. I'm tired with everyone, with everything and with my life. How wonderful if I can live in a videogame's world? Everything seem like so peaceful... Last Day I taked a nap, before I fall asleep I Thought "why is so hard Living?" I need a hug, I really need one. What can I do when I have no friends? What would you do if you were in my shoes? Maybe I should take a break from all of this mess and clear my mind for a bit. Fortunately I don't have anyto suicide thought... An 17 years boy who want a happy life🙂😔