A letter from Apr 18th, 2022

Dear FutureMe, hey! its mid april right now, and, you feel at peace. you are genuinely happy, not just from the exterior but the interior too, and this time, the sole reason for this happiness is you, yourself. last 10 months of your life have been, excruciating and painful and literally i know it felt like nothing's going to work, but it is, its working! you are finally practicing self love and self care at the most unexpected but neded time. in about a week's time, you are having your board exams, and **** you are working hard, you are on fire! i hope that all the efforts get noticed by you yourself and please know that you have a great potential, i guess you already know that now! we have made a few new friends, and like being around them. overthinking is something which isnt really kicking off late and anxiety too is just ceasing and resting down. you are being happy! yes, Mr.Nice did a **** job by saying the unecessary you know it all and how hysterical and mad and sad and tragic it all was for you. the time period from 22nd february- 4th april was a nightmare, just full of anxiety and panic attacks, but you have overcame all that within a few days! yeah, not everything is perfect and i dont wanna publiscize your happiness by displaying it over anywhere, but dude, you have come far in the last 6 months, so much happened in so less time. you didnt really acknowledge the things back then 'cause yeah, that wasnt the right time to do the things and later on boom! it bombarded all i know, in the more worst of times, but now, we just think for present! right now you are happy, you are meditating 2 times a day, blasting out to your favourite songs (not to mention it gets overdramatic at times hhhaha), you are journaling, poetry is going great, you are studying, being healthy, both phyisically and mentally and it matters the most right now! you have accepted EVERYTHING of you, your faults, your mistakes, your impatience, your weak side and you've rose back on the feet, 'cause you just dont wanna settle on walking, you wanna run, wild! so be this way! no more of hurting yourself, no more of self doubt, no more of being an unescessary overthinker. just be present, be happy, its rare to find yourself in no trap and LIVE free rather than just to exist, i hope you are doing more happier than this version! i love you to the moon and to the edge of the universe! take care you, you are worth it all! <33 :) your's your ownself from april 2022