A letter from Mar 28th, 2022

Dear me this is for me in one year: had an idea for a website to send letters to your future self but turns out it’s already been made so i’m gonna use it. where are you at the moment? happy i hope i’m in noosa right now, ally and campbell have been visiting for a week and it’s been amazing to see them again, especially ally; don’t ever stop talking to that girl, the amount of similarities that we have in spite of the fact that i’ve seen her like 3 times in 10 years is ******* crazy. i don’t know where you’ll be with work, i guess this all depends on the coming weeks and who they’re hiring for the head chef position but i’m hoping raw bar. either that or a different restaurant. this is something i just wrote and i know it’s quite depressing but that’s kinda where i am tonight. someday i will find something that fits, i know i’m eighteen but it’s pretty difficult not being able to find someone i think about ginger a lot and whether i made the right decision, maybe i did and that’s what it felt like at the time but now i’m not so sure. i’m too young for the girls at the bars i like and too young for the people i work with. though it is a blessing to be so young in such a nice workplace, it has its challenges that i will not overcome with anything but time. when i was with ginger i took every photo as if i would be looking at it for years to come. slowly i’m starting to realise that maybe i will. Maybe i like the environment more than the food i am turning into everything i hate am i burning out? is this why i hate culinary school? i don’t know man i haven’t ever really second guessed this decision to be a chef but a year in and though i have a lot to show for it, it’s a tough gig. am i still happy in a year? if i have a girlfriend what is her name and if time travel exists please give me a hint. am i still doing drugs and drinking a lot? am i still not doing any exercise? have i moved out? though a year is not a very long time i feel like a lot can happen between now and then. maybe the world has gone to **** by then but we’ll see i’m going to send this off to myself but will write more for you to see in another four years. copying and pasting everything before this. ok now for the one in 5 years. i hope you’ve seen the world - the only thing stopping me from doing this now is having an apprenticeship to finish but that only takes three years. use those two years wisely please and don’t **** yourself with work and the very unhealthy lifestyle im sure we both live. maybe in five years i’ll have a fancy corporate email somewhere and this letter is just going to get sent to no one, who knows. i am currently 18 and i guess it’s your birthday today so congrats, you are getting very old, how’s it feel? all the partying gotten to ya yet? maybe we have a cute girlfriend or fiancé by now, she better be worth it man. tell her you love her from me. send me a polaroid 😉 i’m currently lucky enough to have all four grandparents alive, i know you won’t be so lucky so i’m going to try my best to spend more time with them. what do you wish you could tell me? what’s your greatest advice? what music are you bumpin? if only you could write back lol hopefully i haven’t ****** up too bad, i do think that the worst is in the past but i guess we’ll see. tonight i watched a movie called almost famous, kinda hit pretty hard to be honest. it’s about a kid going into the music industry as a writer even though he’s about 10 years younger than everyone he meets. he kind of feels this sense of isolation from them but also sees everything from a different perspective - fresh eyes i guess. i think i connected with this a lot because of the age thing and it’s a pretty cute movie :) you are currently the age of a lot of the people i am working with right now (people i am just as good as) so at 23 you better be quite ******* great you’ve got a gift and i’m sure a very good resume by now, hopefully you’re happy and with someone and making some good cash it’s getting kinda late here in noosa so i’m gonna wrap it up cos i think i’m rambling a bit. please be smart and focus on yourself. happy birthday :) 28/3/2022