A letter from Mar 5th, 2022

hi me! god, by the time you'll be getting this you'll be graduating soon. i'm currently in year 9, its week 6 next week. i'm struggling to stay focused on writing an extended response on how water scarcity affects food production, but by then you probably wont even remember this. i've gotten the option to do the duke of Edinburgh award and i think i'm gonna do it, i just think it'll be a weird transition going from doing nothing but reading and homework all day to having to learn a skill, a sport and do volunteer work. i'm mainly doing this because my friends are, but honestly i'm genuinely excited. we have camp in a few weeks and im so much more excited then im telling people. im kinda worried about cabins, considering we have 5 people in my friend group and theres 4 people in a cabin. i feel really bad about it because i only joined this group a few weeks ago, before there were only four people, so they wouldnt be going through this without me. my friends used to treat me like ****, so im scared theyre gonna kick me out or make me group up with other people, but theyre good people, they wouldnt do that (i hope). ive genuinely been struggling with trusting people for years, and after what happened, its gotten worse. i knew i was in a group of people that didnt like me, but i stayed, and i dont know why. i wasted 2 years of my life around people i ignore in the hallways now. they were bad people, and i knew that, yet i stayed friends with them, and i think that makes me just as bad. ive been trying to become more myself. i finally made my spotify playlists public, which doesnt sound like a lot but its a big step for me. my old friends and i didnt have much in common, so i was always scared about showing them my spotify playlists and music taste, thinking they would hate me, but now that i have friends who actually support me, no matter my music taste, i feel comfortable in sharing them. ive also been focusing on school more often, that why im trying to write my geography response. for almost every assessment in the past, ive left it to the last day, and its on tuesday (the 8/3/22 - today is the 5/3/22) so by working on it today im getting better. i have an english assessment, and i have a good idea on what to write the creative aspect of it on. for the first part, we have to write a creative piece on, "scars of war last forever", and im planning on writing a story on a boy whose father went to world war 1 (or the vietnam war, havent decided yet). also theres a lot of gramatical errors in this and its really annoying me but i cant go through them until the end. ive just realised how much. i can talk about myself. i should get a journal. oh oh im currently reading how we fall apart by katie zhao. its pretty good so far, but it feels very similar to one of us is lying. i cant believe its been almost a year since i got back into reading. AHHHH IM GOING TO SEE BATMAN TOMORROW AT 3:30!!!!!!!!!! im a hardcore marvel fan but i make some dc exceptions (batman being one of them). i havent even asked about you yet and ive written almost 600 words. how are we? what are we doing for uni? do i still wanna study architecture? who are we friends with? theres so many questions to ask. if you (or i, i guess) were here right now i think we would be talking for hours. i dont think i could just ask all the questions now. what are you currently reading? what was the last marvel movie we saw? i really need to decide if im going to refer to you as a we or as a you. anyways, WERE THE XMEN IN DOCTOR STRANGE MULTIVERSE OF MADNESS?!?!??!!???! thats all for today ill probably write to you again before you receive this letter, but for now, goodbye, from yours truly, melissa :)