A letter from Feb 20th, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Today is Febuary 20, 2022 I'm a freshman and ignore my improper grammar but alot has happened the past few months I used to be close with Risha and Sahmitha but as you know they stop being friends with me because I was a very bad friend and let some dumb small crush get in the way and bc of my anger issues it has destroyed alot of my friendships. Today is Visishta's birthday she's nice ig but a couple hours ago Ria who by far was my closest friend told me I was a bad friend and brought up all the mistakes I made in the past and she told me that we're done and she shouldn't haven't forgived me at all even tho I thought I changed the past few months trying to become a better person and be there for her but ig I'm not good enough. So tbh idk what;s going to happen rn the only friends I have rn so far are Karan and Nawin and ik they look out for me and all really I do Nawin is truly nice and tries to look out for me cuz he went through more than me but he's a junior rn so he'll be off to college and as for Karan he shows that he cares but he has like this perfect life i mean he has a gf, friends, good grades, and overall he's a likeable kind person. Sometimes I just feel jealous of him idk why but anyways he deserves everything coming for him ik that but the bozo is taking 7 aps next year ion what he's thinking but overall I just wanna support him on it sometimes I feel like that dude is like a brother to me. I don't want to compliment nor contradict too much cuz I'm just a freshman who is 14 yk. The person that is reading this is a senior that is 17 years old so pls tell me things get better if they haven't at least be proud u made it this far lol but really tell me are we really a good person we have been there for so many ppl but recieved nothing. I'm only typing this out cuz I have nothing to do which is obvi a lie but atp I just wanna ******* give up. Aneya is in jhu rn prolly studying but still douchey and Amma and Naana decreased there fights so home life is kinda getting better. Pretty much everything in my life is ****** up in a way even grades which ik is not a big suprise anyways I don't wanna waste your time since today for you is a Friday so go and enjoy it but hey don't let me down 3 years late ok. I hope u have close people who you are willing to support and be there for. Also oh yea there's Shreyas my oldest friend i actually forget abt him but pretty much he's my oldest friend but he doesn't really know whats going on with me but I don't think he would understand plus I don't want him to alr know I'm problematic after all these years. Just that hopefully you get better and you are happy that's whats most important so yk have a good day and um have fun alr.