A letter from Feb 16th, 2022

Dear me 🌊 Today is 2/16/22 I realize that I don't have any kind of friend where I'm comfortable sharing my thoughts and opinions. Is confusing that I'm surrounded with people yet I feel lonely. I have 4 kind of friend, just friends I don't label them as a best friend or comfort friend. F1 She's uhm well she's always with me, she's there whenever I go. I basically grew up with her but I feel so far whenever we're together. I'm the bad friend actually. I always ask her to describe me in word or sentence. Or things that made her remember me. But her response will always be negative, I can't disagree with her actually. She is saying the truth but she always make me feel that I'm the baddest person she ever known. F2 I met her in highschool she's message me and we became friends! She is a great friend. She always have story to tell, so many 🍵that we can actually talk all day long. She always the who get to tell the story..It was always her. When I tried to share her my story, her response would always be boring (exp. Ok, oh cool) , she would just tell her story and just forget mine or she wouldn't respond. I'm also the bad friend here I was a bad influence when it comes to studying. F3 &F4 they were my dog. Ok maybe I consider them as my best friend. They are the only "best" friend o could've had. They listen to me but sometimes not. They make me distracted and happy but you'll get to the point where you ask they can respond to you. I feel lonely at home because I'm an only child and my parents work. That is why I'm the loudest person in school because I want attention. being alone is one of my enemy when I was a child but growing up I realized that you just have to appreciate the beauty of being ✨alone✨. Everyone is making me feel lonely that is a bit ok for now. And I wish when I'm older I get to live on my own no parents no friends or lover just me and my babies. 🐕‍🦺🐶