A letter from Feb 14th, 2022

Dear FutureMe, This is really weird to be hearing from your past self and I doubt you will remember writing. I hope you are still good friends with all the people you are close with. I hope your doing really well and your mental health is a lot better. You probably won't remember this but right now you feel like a failure even though your doing everything right. Your having thoughts of starving yourself out so that your skinner. So I hope your doing alright. I hope that when you are reading this you are remembering all the boys you had a crush on and fingers crossed you are dating that one guy you know the one that starts with a M went to primary with you and was Asian and Maori but had a fat glow up and you talk to him sometimes when your with your friends on snapchat. Or maybe even the guy that started with a D and had the same name as DJ (aka brothers kids name) yea well I don't think that's going to work but you can always have faith. I hope you have figured out what you want to be in the future which for you is the present wow that sounds weird. I hope you have accomplished your goal of losing weight and having a body that you can feel good and confident in ( I just realized how young I am to you right now this is weird but oh well). I hope your going to buy your first home which hopefully looks amazing I hope that all your dreams come true. I don't know what to write but I know that you are doing well. my advice to you is to live with this saying YOLO because it's the truth. you know school right now is weird like the school St Mary's is cool but like I don't know how to function properly like it feels like the whole world is against me. I know that this feeling is temporary but I'm still scared it won't go away but I hope you don't feel it anymore I hope you look back on this thinking about how much happier you are and how much more fun your having. I hope that you please please please have learned how to sing if not why not start now. Honestly I am actually a hypocrite because I'm giving you advice that I would probably never do now but you know what it's fine because my advice is good I just don't know how to trust myself properly yet but it's fine because we I'm still learning hopefully I grow out of this and live up to my full potential. I want you to know that you are amazing and that no matter what you can always trust yourself and I will always understand when no else does and even when your not having the best day I hope you still keep going and be strong and just know that this letter is going to reach you probably in a couple of years so look back on this moment and think of the little girl whose only 12 writing this and look at what you've accomplished and think about all that you have done to get here I am proud of you. I know I am going to be so happy about my life in the future. from your past self