A letter from Jan 30th, 2022

I love midou, I love him for real! ik u now wont know how much u loved him and u will say it was a teenage unreal love but its not, I feel home with him I feel safe with him, I dont think Im gonna find sm that I feel that much home men ghiro. I felt like I belong to him I never loved the word benti but when he said it I felt weird, he said I wont listen to the others speech bout u, ur not 9ahba banti ana mahich 9ahba, that was the most beautiful thing Ive ever heared, that sounds cringe ik lol but he treated me like sm that belongs to him, he showed me his love but I didnt, I didnt know how to! he loved from his deepest m sure, now! hes mean, rude, heartless! i dont what happened but he said I hurted him, he said I was toxic and hurtfull :'( but the fact was that I LEFT MY DEAREST PEOPLE FOR HIM.... in first he was OBSESSED with me, once when we talked he said im so happy I said why! he just replied; hdert meak bzaf lyoum, and a lot of stuffs, but i regret it ki supprimit les msjs, we first talked i guess in 22 october, we stoped in 14 december, that november was the best month in my life... from 14 december till now, I still cant forget him or stop thinkin bout him, midou I love him but Im not sad cuz I lost him im sad cuz Im scared that I need that attention from him but Im afraid if it wont be sm like him, midou manipulated me I just wish I can pull him again, he said he fell for me the first day 21 september, from that day and hes obsessed w me gali ndkhl b majda w nkhrj b majda hata sahbo dekkich khaf elih gal tfol say rah fiha LMAO ****** ***** MIDOU, lmao I cheated on malak and zoubida and I left sohayb for him they deserve thooo, anyway midou lkhra maychbh l walou w ea9litou k zok bsh nbghih wlh nikmok midou, hhhhhhhhh drtha f 2033 chaki diriiiiiii nchlh brk tkouni mzwja w rajlk maychoufch msj lmao I wish you love him and he loves you!!!!!! I wish u got a baby tho wila nn u adopte hh anyway chefti yakhty ki konti dheriya w t3ch9i! awah ndirha f 2025 khir khirmn ttfkri midou w t3ch9i fih tan w tnsay rajlk lalaaa yakhty, bye, blmiz midou ki rah w9il hrag lala? lsl yetnak nchlh tkouni soti whd tbghih bzf w terta7i meah, akhlaya ni khyfa ila mzlti tbghi midou tbahdila..... bayna raki tgoli a3a9 cha kont nbghi ew wlad lfirm w ga3 oooo, sha bye twlt jss hh bsh bizar kifh ana ni nktblk dok w nti t9ray wow I felt it rn! that me in the future is reading this and thinkin bout me, and m just a dead memory! that becomes scary lol ana nroh nchouf midou, a nami ktabt ktab mchi msj ana nroh en vrai bye omri thlay f rohek.