A letter from Jan 28th, 2022

Dear FutureMe, I might make this a yearly tradition, the first one I wrote made me cry - but happy tears, not sad ones. The reason it made me cry because I got to see my progress and I found a small comfort in knowing that past me, was cheering future me on. Having a brain like ours means that seeing the good in things can sometimes be hard, we focus solely on the bad that's happening now and forget to celebrate the good - so here's the good: You made it one year at your job (almost) and got a raise within the first nine months. You have a puppy, who drives you crazy but you literally cannot imagine your life without him. You're single, but okay with it (for the most part). Your depression isn't nearly as bad as it used to be and we have our little Bean to thank for that. You get out of bed, even on the days where you don't want to to get things done, you eat breakfast every morning, and a proper dinner every night. I hope that stays the same. I hope that in a year time, when this message reaches you, you're still happy and healthy and even if you aren't, I know that you'll continue to fight to make sure that you're okay. I know that we get exhausted carrying the weight of the world on our shoulders and that's okay. No one expects us to be okay all the time. I hope you still find comfort in the fact that someone is looking out for you and praying that things work out in your favour. I hope that you are able to continue growing your life - you moved to this country with literally no money, no plan and made something of yourself. I hope that as time goes on, you continue to impress yourself (and me too). I'll always refer to us as two different people - because you grow so much, you and I may not be the same whenever this reaches you. I'm so proud of you, I'm proud of you for taking the necessary steps to ensure that you have a good life. I hope that this year you get to travel and see the world. You deserve to see the world Banana. I love you endlessly. Happy 25th birthday! I know we never imagined we would live past 16 but here we are.. alive and hopefully thriving. I hope 25 is amazing and I hope this birthday tops last year's. Though, I don't think anything could be better than dancing to Jonas Brothers and One Direction in the wee hours of the night lol. You deserve all the happiness this world has to offer and when it finds you, accept it with open arms. Bye Banana, See you in a year