A letter from Jan 21st, 2022

Dear Future Me, I hope you grow out of that sad state, its really affecting your school life. You give up before you even try and you cant even get assessments done because your to busy stressing about other things and homework you need to do. You get bad mile times because you hate running and dont care if you fail PE, you dont try in PE cuz your insecure and feel like everyone's eyes are one you, even tho your just a normal girl. You cant even eat lunch at school because you wont take your mask off because your scared people will think your ugly and you are but thats not the point. You need to grow out of this anxiety and depression, its not helping you in ANY way, its just making your life horrible. Hows things at home? Is mom still with dad even tho he cheated on her to many times to count? Do they still fight about dumb things? Is dad blaming everything on your phone? Does he still believe that everything has to be done in the Mexican cutler way? is he still pressuring you to do good in school? Has he even changed? Do you and your brothers and sisters get along?Where will you be in a year's time? Did you go to the high school you wanted too, if so or not, hows high school so far, is it like middle school, I dont suspect things will change?What will you need to hear in that moment? Do you need to write texts to yourself and comfort yourself? If so, thats sad lol. My advice to you is, find new friends, ones that dont bully you. Ones that dont want you to change who you are. Ones who dont judge you about how your body or face look. Ones who actually care about you and ones who will be there for you. Also you need to love yourself and workout if you wanna look how you wanna look, you will never be perfect, but then again, no one is. SO JUST BE YOU. If people dont like you, then dont care. They are not important. Just dont change. Your only 13, live a good life cuz you only live once. live you life till the fullest. Dont be scared to make mistakes. your just a kid.