A letter from Jan 11th, 2022

Dear my highschool love, How are you and where are you now? I plan to only do this once to see how you are and what you've done...First things first, happy birthday you'll be an adult by now and I'll also be an adult. I just wanted to tell you some things that I've been holding back but not in a bad way but from what I've learned. I loved you, yes. I loved you so much and I did hate the nights where I can't go to bed with you and spend endless nights on the phone with you. What you've done was non excuse able, no matter how many letters nor gifts or attention and physical touch that you gave me, all I could see was you talking to those other girls behind my back. I wanted to love you again, and I kept lying to myself that I could love you again, but I just couldn't... You were my first actual love, besides my past, the one who I can love and be myself...But sadly you were the chapter in my story that I couldn't rip out or stop reading. I want to be honest to, I did really miss you and I did want to keep you in my arms forever and ever. But I now know that you were not happy with me or around me and the music I listen to remind me of our late nights or our silent snuggles. I know you probably never wanted to hear from me but I just...I still want to keep contact like in middle school when we would just talk every now and then.. When we would hang out and do dumb stuff or when we talked about random things. If you don't want to talk to me, it's completely reasonable and I understand. But if you do and our emotions for each other are gone, then my Gmail is the same 😅. herkairi@gmail.com, it'll be nice to speak to someone from the past. But again...If you don't want anything to do with me, it's completely fine. Sincerely, Kairi Her