A letter from Jan 5th, 2022

dear leaf, how are you? it's january 5th 2022 today, and things haven't been going well for us so far (we just got a 48 in math today, yay!...). life in general has been tough over the past few months, school wise, on the work side, and personal life. but i have faith because i know it's gonna get better, or at least i hope so. i've started to be more self-conscious about the things i do, and the things that surround me. i've realized i'm not exactly who you'd would want to be and i'm going to change that because you deserve better. i will work myself to the ground if it means we can be happier, prettier and better. it should have been a whole year until you got this letter. are we in college now? are we happy with the choice we made? because right now, i can't help but feel lost when i think of the future. college seems like a blur, and it scares me. especially since knowing i haven't been doing so well in my classes. i really hope that we made a good choice that we won't regret (and that'll bring us a lot of money!). no matter what, know that every single version of ourselves in this universe is proud of who you've become. we've been here since the start, and we'll stay until the end. from your younger lost self, leaf.