A letter from Jan 5th, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Hey there! It’s you of course. Today its 5 January 2022 (and im 14). Im so proud of you for getting to your 18th birthday. I never thought we would be able to do that. Right now life is confusing and getting bad again but i hope you’ll get out of that dark place and those bad thoughts. - Are you happy, Like actually happy? - Do you still self-harm? - And did u get diagnosed with any (other) mental illness? - How many new friends did u make if you made any new ones ofc, making friends is hard rn bc of your anxiety. Now i’ll ask you some more exciting things! - HOWS YOUR LOVE LIFE! I definitely had to ask you that. Did you find someone who truly makes you happy and doesn’t use you? whats his name!! (and does he have fluffy hair, is he tall, whats his clothing style?) - Are you going to Sweden to meet Jacob? Or aren’t u friends anymore? - Did you go on that exchange year in the USA? - Hows your family doing? Is Nonna still alive? How are your little brothers and mom? Is dad alive? And if he is, is he still an addict? - Are you still friends with your current friend group? - What was your first (student) job? - Are you still studying or do you have a job? - What are your favorite colors? (rn its purple) - How much do u weight? And how tall are you? - Do you have your own house/ appartement? Or are u saving up for it? - Ur own kids? Or planning it? - What is your biggest regret?? - What is something you will never forgive someone for? That was it tbh! My biggest goal for when you get this is that you’re alive. Stay strong i know u can do this. And get help Liz. You need it. I love you and have the best birthday ever.