A letter from Dec 31st, 2021

Dear FutureMe, How are you? Is everything alright? I hope it's not. If u are reading this u haven't kys yet. Aren't u tired of living? I think u are. Or is there something or someone making ur life worth living? Anyways have u finish ur reasons why to & why not to note? should've to finish it sooner. Well, if u died not from kys, the person who hurt u will feel ******* in guilt smth like that. Let them feel like ******* some1. I've got to ask u this. Are u still Shahi & Umi's best friend? I'm scared u will lose them. They made ur life worth so much of living. Admit it. Don't be shy to appreciate them okay? Don't love them too much 😂 Something u love so much will disappear anytime in the future. I love how u are so in love with them. What about Aina Khalilah, Ebby & all of them? Please tell me u are still doing the butterfly ****. That's kind of behavior is gold. I have no idea what they think of u but treasure them. How's ur study? WAIT ARE U A GENIUS ALREADY? HAHAHAHA I know u are not. But u can still work ur way to that. Trust me. Don't u dare thinking of giving up. Except from giving up life. After u repay mother, u can die in peace. Please do something to repay our mother. She suffered a lot from her past. U have to make her future so much better. Please take care of her. Idk why u are so lazy here. Hoping u aren't over there. Like no actually take a good care of her. I don't want her to be in pain anymore. This hurt to ask. How's u & ur brother but not so brotherly? Here's my prediction, he stupid *** left after uni like cut mother off or something like that. Bro i think he haven't even finish uni yet. But I got a weird feeling that he's going to. If he did, do something to find him back when u are super rich, make him regret not treating u like the little sister u deserved to be treated as. Tell our future self that. Actually, u have so much more to do with life. I don't think u are that depressed to end ur life. U can't even bleed urself. Believe me, life is so good if u literally don't do **** about ur feelings. I swear it's just way more better. Of course u can cry urself to sleep or smth like that. Give ur happiness a break sometime. AHH & Billie got her new album released. I'm gonna ******* cry if u just somehow hate her. She dyed her hair twice last year. Blonde to brunette. Girl looked hot in both. We both can agree that we liked billie bc of that one guy but he ended & billie didn't. Billie is so much worth anyways. If u even thought of not liking her anymore, I don't know what's going on in ur life. U are maybe busy with studying or u- NO BC i can't ******* expect what's next for u. U are so unexpected. It's new year so this is my 2021 review. Even earlier that year u wasn't at ur best, but in the end it's so much worth it. I love seeing u smile n ****. Love seeing u happy. The Annual dinner was amazing. Best experience u ever had so far. I wonder what will it be next year. U were so happy with ur circle. Even u literally have a ******* enemy right under ur nose but u didn't let her stop u. The triple wedding was good. Good? Who am i kidding it was amazing! Even there is some drama but it was amazing. U met Abang Abdullah & genshined with ur sister together. Ahh I'm rating 2021 8/10. Just because I can't remember ur tears. I mean did u even cry girl? U are so strong & i love u for it. Probably gonna regret my writing but **** it. Write more for ur future. Wait since no one is going to say this to u, Im going to. u were like a shot of espresso, being bathed in sunlight u incredibly energetic & enthusiastic, & u has like this sense of play & fun which was incredibly exciting, I always wanted to say that u someone so why not my future self? Bye bye now. Love u endlessly