A letter from Dec 27th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Dear Future self, Today is your 27th birthday. I know you are kinda shocked and a bit cringy because you are reading what you have told to your future self 5 years ago. You are doing this on October 28, 2021 because you watched one tiktok video regarding sending a message to your future self. Credits to DJ Joelle,, thanks for the idea hehe. You have the time to do this because u are experiencing unstable internet connection so instead of doing your thesis eh nag-iinarte ka na lang hahahaha. 5 years ago, you are someone who overthinks a lot about your future, hindi mo alam kung masaya ka ba talaga sa ginagawa mo kasi simula nung grumaduate ka ng SHS hindi ka na naging sigurado eh. You are not sure what life may bring to you but you believe that life is full of surprises so u kept on going and hang in there kasi naniniwala ka naman na mahahanap mo rin passion mo. Kapit malala. Hindi ka naman broken (somehow yes) pero iniisip mo lang mga what ifs and regrets mo sa buhay lol. Kung naging matapang lang talaga ako hays.... Now that u are reading this, I hope you are already in a better place. Nasurvived mo yung college degree mo kahit all of those years eh hindi ka naman sigurado sa ginagawa mo pero nagpatuloy ka. Sana may stable job ka na at masaya ka sa ginagawa mo. Sana hindi ka na struggling financially, sana nakakaraos ka na/kayo ng family mo kasi pinangako mo sa sarili mo na once nakagraduate ka ikaw naman tutulong at magpoprovide sa family mo at babawi ka sa mga taong never ka iniwan at pinabayaan. Sana nakakapag-travel ka na kasi gustong gusto mo yon pag nakakakita ka ng mga posts sa fb inisiip mo na sana ikaw naman someday lalo na pag about sa nature beach man yan or hiking. Sana kasama mo pa rin yung mga highschool besties mo/OG friends na lagi mong kasama sa mga kabobohan lol sana may mga jowa na rin kayo hahahaha. Lastly, sana yung puso, isip mo masaya na. I hope you already found your other half/soulmate kasi before hindi ka naman kinacrushback ng gusto mo kaya natutunan mo yung self-love the hard way, lagi kang taga sana all lang at takot na takot sa commitment kaya yung mga taong willing sumugal sayo tinataboy mo lang ganda yan eh lol. Sana nahanap mo na yung someone who's worth the wait despite of all the heartbreaks, ***** and all eh masasabi mo na lang buti hindi ka nagmadali at hinintay na lang kung may ibibigay ba si God (okay lang din kahit wala, I know my worth. People come and go. Mananatili ang mananatili, aalis ang aalis luh daming ebas yarn??). Someone na pasok sa ******* standards mo eme at naiintindihan ang love language mo. Sana ginamit mong stepping stone yung mga what ifs and regrets mo to be the best version of yourself and to improve of course. Sana matapang ka ng nagdedesisyon para sa sarili mo. Salamat hindi ka napagod maghintay. Salamat hindi ka napagod maghintay. Sana genuinely happy ka na ngayon. Kung mabasa mo man to sa 27th birthday mo at wala pang natutupad. Wag ka umiyak dyan at wag mong iisipin na napag-iiwanan ka na naman. All of us have different timeline okay? Don't compare yourself to others kasi iba-iba tayo ng story, we have our own story to tell so don't be disappointed. Mahaba pa ang panahon self. Laban ka lang lagi, laging kumapit at laging magpatuloy. You got this! P.S. Umiiyak ka habang ginagawa to. Emo lol. Hindi ka sure kung okay ba writing basta inexpress mo lang sarili mo haha. P.P.S. Eww tanda mo na HAHAHAHAHA!