A letter from Dec 25th, 2021

Dear Future Old Lady Me, Six years into the future, six years... Wow, that's amazing, time flies, doesn't it? Just yesterday you were twelve and writing this note. Too curious to know what happens in the future. Now- you are so- adult! You're 18. 18!! Wow- and soon enough you'll be 20!!! I can't believe I've(you've) gotten this far. What are you (planning on) studying for your PhD? We both know I (you) can't leave school without at least a master's or doctorate. Is it in aerospace engineering, database architect, author or maybe psychology? Or you took a different route. Do what you love. Nothing more. Nothing less. Take a moment and look around. What do you see? Are you in an apartment? At work? In a dorm? Dead(Hopefully Not)? Be thankful. There are always people in a worse position than you. Think of those starving kids in Africa? Or people with the disease Stephen Hawking did? You are so beautiful. SO PERFECT. SO FREAKING SMART. Maybe you are tall, a bit awkward, nerdy, and self-conscious. BUUUUUUUUUUTT THINGS COULD BE WORSE. I deleted a part accdently ;'( How is Wolves of Fate going? It was a bust wan't it? You didn't make a single penny- but you learned so much. True Friendship- You and Grace, the ability to get through EVERYTHING together. No matter how distant she felt, even though she's just a few houses away, COVID made it feel like she was on the other side of the universe. I miss her so much. She might not be able to go to 7th grade next year beacause of Omocron. I admit it, I may have broken down in tears. She's like a little sister to me, I want her to experince middle school, I also want to ******* anybody that even TRIES TO bully her. I'll be there for her, I love her so much. B) BACK ON TRACK, lesson 2, Grammar/Spelling- Advanced Writing, hardest class, but deffinetly your favorate. Mr. Copeland, what a splendid teacher. Sofa (Sofe? Sofia? Ring any bells?), you are so mean but so awesome at the same time. Osa(Osaraten), oh Osa, you were such a good friend, and your art was just-*chefs kiss* Well Middle School is intruging. There is no ligitmate word to describe it. Eccept mabye this one: Insane-Stupid-Demanding-Indoctrinating-Overbearing- and Nausating. Perfect. English is just socratic debating and writing- and I love it, because I'm weird. History makes me die inside, EVERY TIME THAT 7th PIERIOD BELL RINGS ALL I CAN THINK is "Crap... Histrory." Not because I get bad grades, (I got a 98 in the class for the semester). The class- WHY DID I CHOOSE OL (On Level) HISTORY. Those kids are the definition of INSANATY. They should be in the Webster, I mean serously. The teacher is nice however. Math is a tad taxing with the studying and whatnot, but I've spent more hours on a history Quizzes that anything ever. Worst of all it's JUST history for THIS SPECIFIC STATE?! Like who thought ANYONE WOULD FIND THAT INTRISTING?! It's like memorize this guy or this fancy genral. This won't affect my future- ever. I PROMISE. I DON'T WANT TO TEACH HISTORY PER SINGLE STATE. How's your socal life going? I'd assume you've had your first kiss by now. Mabye been in a relationship that lasted more than two seconds? Well, remember, no matter how much you love someone, if they do not reflect that love, they are not worth it. This equates with friendship too, you must meet in the middle for a solid relationship of ANY kind. Well boys have always been hard to understand, they're so- loud. I'm a bit confused myself- anyways, there's a boy (Gage, which rhymes with my name. xD)I think I like, but he is in a relationship(I beleive with Ray currently). But he's hinted he's had s crush on me and I heard them talking about him "simping" for me. Which I enbarasingly had to look up when I got home. Then again, he kind of doesn't care about his grades, I know that's mean- but he just doesn't get great grades, basicly never studies, etc, etc. I don't even know WHY I like him. Plus, to shoot my dreams again, he is SOO popular and basicly ALL the girls are all over him. AND TO STOMP ON THE DEAD BODY OF MY FREAKING DREAMS- I have no chance with him. My parents would more or less shread him to a million peices. :p Oh, you've had your drivers licence for 3 years? 2 years? More likely 3. Anyways I always thought driving was dangerous. Having all of that power? Right there in the palm of your hands. (Wait A Second- Austin has his licence now- and he's only two years older than me? What happened to logic?) I hope you read this- if you didn't well your loss. Please be ok. I love you. -6 Years Younger You <33