A letter from Dec 24th, 2021

Dear Older, and hopefully wiser FutureMe, Happy Birthday! Wow You're so old now, 20 I believe (sure hope its 20, cause that would be embarrassing wouldn't it)? I hope it isn't just my letter that you receive today. It's been a long time, hasn't it. I'm sure a lot happened. What are you doing for your birthday? having fun? Swimming? Hiking? Food? Got any cool cards or presents? How are your friends? Has abby been ignoring you? Have you gone to college? Where? What state, Country? Got a job yet or are ya still too lazy? Don't be like me, I don't recommend. Though i'm sure You of all people understand. It's been a struggle honestly, starting high school in the pandemic. I joke about it a lot but its hard. I'm in tenth grade now, I've got good grades; I try really hard, I think the stress of last year got to me and now I try to do my work. I've been helping my friends, acting somewhat a tutor. It boosts my ego knowing im smarter than them, but it's fun to help as well. :) Its too much sometimes. I joke about not being able to cry, honestly it's funny, but i wish i could cry. Last time i actually cried was february 2021 valentines day. I feel pent up, I feel like the world is brighter when you let emotions flow. But it's looked down upon when you do. Everyone is living life, but life doesn't always feel worth it. Its Dec 24th, Christmas eve 2021. I've been getting Christmas presents all month. I got a new phone and ALMOST cried cause I didn't know what to do. Got airpods too. I got chocolate, some pencils, money for Collage (the art shop). I've gotten so much! I can't believe i'll get even more. I mean according to dad, i'll still get more, who knows. Advice (from me) in case you've already forgotten: 1. Green is the best color, i will fight you on it I SWEAR 2. Open up a Roth IRA so you are rich in the future 3. Clean the house once a week so dust doesn't build up eww gross :C 4. I know you get down sometimes so go for a walk, for me, please 5. Take a deep breath 6. Have an Emergency fund 7. Treasure people, they won't be around forever so have fun 8. FOR GOD'S SAKES, STOP OVERTHINKING EVERYTHING, BEING SUSPICIOUS OF NICE PEOPLE, NEVER TALKING TO PEOPLE AND INSTEAD JUST BEING A CREEP AND STARING AT THEM (as nike once said) JUST DO IT, PLEASE! 9. Oh and P.S. just take a shower I know you've been putting it off, you stink. People are just too nice about it to say anything I'm writing this because I know i'll forget, but please remember; Take care of yourself, you are the only one who knows what you're feeling, take a break, take a nap, go for a walk, dang even get a therapist to play board games with, just treat yourself once in a while. I hope life has improved. I hope you have a nice home. I hope you have some plants. Maybe you'll live in New york, or Kyoto, or Rio or Portland or where ever makes you happy. Because you deserve it, You've done so, so, so much, and I'm glad you've made it. I love you. Happy birthday. <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 I am Quite~~~~~ the poet if i do say so myself. ;D