A letter from Dec 12th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, You must be 19 now. That's a lot, and the school is pretty much in the past. I suppose you are a university student, aren't you? If not, who are you then? The troublesome days of living in your native home must be gone and I hope that's for good. Do you have friends or other relationships? What are you actually doing, are you productive or something? So many questions to be asked, and most of them won't ever be. Maybe some of them will trouble you, but they are made for good, to make you think about yourself, about me. Enough of you, let's talk 'bout me. I'm now 15, studying in school, 9th grade. Or at least pretending to, or trying, I dunno. It's hard to overcome all the difficulties and problems of the life, but I'm trying to. There was quarantine recently and winter holidays will be soon, which I'm waiting very much. I have some problems with Math and Ukrainan in school, you know, that definitely needs a lot of work. But it's hard to concentrate with all the thoughts, wishes and regrets. Those goals and habits need to be accomplished, and that requires a lot of efforts. But I will do this, only for you. No fap, training, music school, Math. I got 1st place in first two English Olympiads though, but kinda flunked the last. 3rd place isn't that bad, but I could do better, one word I didn't know that ruined the whole thing. You probably don't remember that. It doesn't matter anyway. My peers, my grades, my future, and many other things trouble me a lot. But I'll pass through them and make my way to the future, to you. And now, I'm sitting here on the old couch, typing this letter. It's sunday, tomorrow will be school. My sister visited us yesterday, today she will be gone. I'm not only typing this letter, but also listening to the song, they help me pretty much. "Cold Water". It reminds me of past memories, of this summer. Of good time playing Wild Rift while listening to the song. Though, memories are always good. Who have you become, what have you accomplished? Regardless of all the things, the fact that you are reading this letter means you are cool! Just do your best and be sincere with yourself. And all your dreams will come true. Best wishes, Me.