A letter from Nov 17th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Hey, how’s it going if you ever end up reading this. I know you might be busy with whatever you’ve gotten yourself into this time but try and make some time to read this through. I'm in 8th grade right now and I have a couple questions I have to answer since this is a assignment in health class, so here we go. My childhood dream, which I don’t know why you would forget, was always to be a famous pop star and it’s kinda still similar. Now I want to be a broadway star, I want to be famous enough that people know who I am and I have a lot of money but not so famous I can’t go out in public. Sorry for this bad transition. These required questions are really getting on my nerves. My earliest memory I have is actually when Evan was born, I remember being at Aunt Sarah’s old house and eating pancakes shaped like mickey mouse that I thought were the coolest things ever. I remember the room feeling so big and so cramped with people. Whenever I think of it for some reason I also always think of that armadillo thingy from Dora The Explorer. Even though that was my first memory, my most memorable day of my life in general was...well I have a couple. There are of course the happy ones like Ben’s Bat Mitzvah and going to see School Of Rock with Lexi and Amelia in 4th grade for my birthday. But then there are the sad ones, like the day Natalie Yarad got mad at me and kicked me out of a group chat for no reason and Juliette recorded the facetime and sent it to Natalie and proceeded to say awful things to me through text after hanging out with me in person just three hours before. Then there is of course Tyler in general, in fact the whole choccy milk groupchat is a mess that will most likely haunt me forever. Actually the one phrase that I will never forget is is when Juliette said “I didn’t want to tell you but you wonder why you have no friends and no one likes you, I didn’t want it to get to this point but you haven’t realized yet” like what the actual **** who's best friend says that stuff to them. If you forgot about all of that and I reminded you really sorry, but enough about that sad stuff I’ll talk about the positives from this period. I thought Rory’s whole friend group hated me but it turns out they don’t! I started this letter in the 2nd period 11/11/21 and I’m finishing it today in the 2nd period 11/12/21 (or I should be at least). If you remember anything from those days then yesterday was my mental breakdown in the bathroom during lunch/study hall complete with me screaming "I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE" and the best part is that there was a girl in the stall and I saw her in the hall later. I’m really grateful to Rory and Ainsley for getting me through a rough time in my life. Rory has been so supportive of me the last couple months I have no idea what I would do with her. In Fact her relationship has impacted my life in such a positive way! Sadly the same cannot be said for Juliette, Tyler, Bryson and Juliana (Rhey). I am still affected by all of their actions (not Rory's of course) so badly sometimes I literally can’t get out of bed in the morning. Actually (I am aware of how unhealthy this is) Juliette is usually the last person I think about before I fall asleep and the first thing I think about before I wake up. I’m hoping that when I go to high school next year my friend's problems will get sorted out. I’m also hoping that I make new friends but still keep my current ones like Rory and Ainsley. Now as much as venting about your 8th grade problems to your future self is fun I do have to get back to the questions now. My favorite books currently are The Hunger Games series, specifically Catching Fire (the second book). I honestly have no idea why I loved them so much, they are just such good books! I had to read the first one for summer reading this summer but I loved it so much that I read the rest of the series. Ok next question. The hobby that most shaped my personality is probably all those random art projects I do. When I was little I remember doing arts and crafts projects any chance I could get. It's shaped me into a very creative person, even now I still love doing crafts. My only problem is I have art kits but I’m afraid to use them for some reason. I think my logic is I only have one chance to use them and I don’t want to waste it I guess. That questions done, moving on. A goal I hope to accomplish by the end of High School is honestly to have fun. As my future self would know I’m a big worrier so I don’t want that to stop me from letting loose and having the high school experience. I obviously still want to get good grades and be a good student, but I do want some fun. Some achievements I have are, 1 I am still alive, tbh I'm surprised I didn't **** myself already, 2 I made high honeroll for all of middle school, well not all of middle school, I’m looking at you 89% in math 4th quarter of 7th grade. And 3 I am still friends with Lexi we have literally been friends since 1st grade that's literally 8 whole years! Ok the last question is obstacles I’ve overcome, and honestly I’m still trying to overcome them. The truth is i'm not over Juliette, Tyler, Juliana and even ******* Bryson. But I’m slowly getting better and moving on....kinda. (editing this 11/19/21 since i never pressed send but I had another mental breakdown at rehearsal on Saturday but the show is in 2 days) I have a good support system and some ACTUALLY good friends so I should be fine. As for you? Well I’m not sure now but when you read this letter I’m hoping that we were able to move on, able to live life after Juliette, to be able to keep my friendship with Rory and Ainsley, able to get a girlfriend! Oh well, I guess I’ll know in 5 years, See ya in 5 years, Callie