A letter from Nov 9th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Boy have we been going through it this week. Monday was your 24th birthday but this internship is just kicking our butt. I hate charting and I'm not being given clear guidelines or expectations to meet so I keep doing random things wrong! Why is everything so specific?? Like my bad you only told me we were seeing them for their wounds and not whether it was a consult or an alert! UGH. My preceptor this week I'm not even sure has actually said hi to me yet...more of just go sit down and get ready for the day. Steve also just told me he only rated me a 3.5/4 is because he didn't have enough time to watch what I was doing and he was busy doing other things so he didn't create my projects or even give input. I'm so glad he's leaving but I still have 15 weeks left! Well, only 11 of clinical left. I'll have a meeting with Karon soon, I just need to figure out what I'm going to say and how to say it. I'm going home for Thanksgiving and I'm so excited! I miss Shasta and Max and Maisy. I even get to bring Kwoe with me! Too bad Alex will be in Boston with his new boo :( Maybe I'll see Jeremey while I'm in town but we haven't had a conversation in weeks. It was time I think we stopped pretending it was going to happen, but I guess it was me not letting go thinking it would hurt him more. That hasn't gotten us anywhere in the past tho has it. I came home to a glass, a mug, and my asian hot pot broken on the floor! I can only guess what or who happened. Luckily, Kwoe wasn't hurt. I'm going to Zion national park with Stone and Sam tomorrow! We leave mid morning and will go on a shorter hike in the afternoon/evening and Stone got the hotel room for the night. Sunday we'll go on a longer hike and I'm ready to get my body moving! I've been stuck at a desk charting too much this week! Anyway, I wonder when I'll get this at 27, hopefully when I need it? Whatever that means, I don't think this letter will be any help to future me. It was more just me ranting about how I hate my life at the moment. Anyway, Do something good with your life! Buy a house or something idk