A letter from Nov 12th, 2021

hey future me i hope your doing well and i hope the homies are still with you and are they doing well if so thats good news. also i have questions for my future self, did i got better in math, drawing and writing books? did i turn trans or nb? did i got my fav characters in my fav games? and lastly did u get a really close friend to hang out with present me feels really lonely and left out in everything... its just i cant explain the feeling like your friends are there for you and im grateful for that but like when hanging out with them i just feel more lonely cause like theres 4 people dating each other and 2 people who are like really close bestfriends... now i kinda understand why one of them is jealous i kinda relate to them but i heard they liked me but when i said im asexual i probably made them heartbroken. But the great news is that i found really nice people in the internet but yea i have been overthinking that they will leave me for someone else... oh well ig probably cause of someone or just my awkwardness. and another great also i become a discord mod! although its sometimes stressing but it feels like a great achievement for me even tho im mostly forgotten now haha. after writing this i feel like im faking my sadness but i dont really think i can express my emotion well..