A letter from Nov 9th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, In 5 years who tf knows where I will be. Right now I'm sitting in my bedroom with my feet up on my chair listening to Oh Klahoma by Jack Stauber, one of my favorite songs right now at least. I'm honestly really tired. I feel like **** constantly and I'm depressed. I feel stuck and there's nothing I can do to get rid of this feeling. I'll be forced to be in highschool for the next 4 years. I am considering graduating early though. I still have no idea if I will or won't though, there's pros and cons to it and honestly I'm still in between. I hate school. I hate pretending to like my friends and pretending that I'm fine. I hate that people are total ******* ******** in highschool and don't give a flying **** about anyone except themselves. I have big plans for the future. I want to become a surgeon and I want to make an impact on the world. I don't want to sit back in an office job doing absolutely nothing with me life. I don't want to be the average joe who lives a mediocre life and doesn't do anything particularly important their whole life. I want to make an impact on the world and be remembered. I want to have a legacy to leave behind. In 5 years I might've given up this whole idea and now think of it as some trope. But holy **** right now I will do anything to make an impact and do anything to live my life to the fullest. Time is the most important thing in the world to me and skipping out on a year of highschool is one of the many steps, ****, I'd do it in a heart beat. I hope when I'm reading this in 5 years I'm not feeling disappointment in myself and wishing I did things differently but being proud of myself for doing everything I want to do.