A letter from Nov 4th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Hello, my 30 year old self. How are you? I hope your doing okay. Do you remember this year? Is it still clear to you? The sadness, the hopelessness all those doubts and whys? Are you regularly visiting Papa? If you haven't, please bring a flower to him. Do you still cry a lot whenever you remember him? Like I always tell, it's okay. Cry it all out. I really hope you still dream of him. I want to remind you that we dream of him saying I love you to us. Are you taking care of Mama? I hope you give her lots of love and attention. We learn a hard lesson from Papa's ***** so I want to remind you that time is so precious. Please tell Mama that I love her. I hope you can spoil her rotten there unlike here that all I can do is to cook for her. Please take care of your health. You have a tendency to cry when your emotionally exhausted. You're 30 years old now. Are you still unmarried or do you have a kid now? Or I stand firm notgetting any kids and just travel the globe with Sis. How is Sis? Are you two still act like bestfriends? I hope you two are successfully fulfilled now. Does your business take off? Or you go back to the corporate world? Do you have enough confidence now to face all your fears? Really hope you have enough money on your bank account and reading this in a vacation spot in another country. Does Sis have a husband? Or kids? Don't be thrifty and spoil them. You owe them alot. Please be kind. Hope you keep in touch with your friends. Did you attend a reunion or your introvert self make an excuse to them? I hope you try to socialize. You have to enjoy your life. Does the world become normal like in pre-Covid period there? Hope so. How are your nieces? Are they okay? Help them whenever you can. It's the least you can do for your brother. Speaking of bro, is he still working outside the country? Hope he finds his happiness and peace. I'm unemployed, no goals, no savings right now. I hope your not like me. Are you happy? I want you to reply 'Im happy, satisfied, with investment, the business is blooming, eating dinner with Mama, already bought a car and a house.'  Did you change a lot? Im scared of what I will become. Please dont forget to thank God for all the blessings you get. If you dont know what to do again, just write it all down. All your fears, doubts and insecurities. Always pray to God. Please take care of yourself and your mental health. I love you.