A letter from Nov 3rd, 2021

Hi Bakang. I'm going to send this about five years from today.You are heartbroken(as I wrote this)you loved someone so much and the person treated you so poorly.You spent two months trying to keep the relationship afloat,while he had already left,even though he was sort of there physically. It hurts so much.Especially in the mornings,it is so raw in the mornings.It must be the dreams you keep having about the person. You still wonder if he's okay,if he'll come back.It hurts so much to think about him married to someone else or even,having kids with someone else.It hurts so much you cry at the thought of it. You wonder if you meant as much to him,as he did to you.I guess you will never know. By the time you read this,I know you'll be in the city of your dreams,PMB. I know you found the right job there,you will cycle,do yoga,learn to swim and so much more. I don't know if you are married now and if you are a mother but I sure hope so. I know how much you love love and how much you are looking forward to that part of your life. I hope you are the mother and wife you've always wanted to be.To a gentle,kind and smart man who loves God and treats you with as much respect and kindness as you deserve. I hope you got over the heartbreak.Whichever way that may be and you found a love that transcends all understanding. I hope you are fulfilled with your career and that your yoga brand finally took off and you get to do that too. I hope your house is full of love and laughter. As you read this and probably remember the heartbreak you feel/felt at this moment,I hope it reminds you yet again,that the plan was always God's. That God knew,that your life would turn out this way and the bend in the road was no surprise to God. I hope you tell your husband and your kids,that you spoke about them to God often,when they were simply requests and ideas. That they know you fought so hard to get here for them,mostly for yourself. You haven't always had an easy time.I hope you finally got to a place in life,where your days are always filled with love and happiness. I am proud that you stuck it out and went after your dreams. It is beautiful,isn't it?Waking up in the morning and being able to take your kids to the beach. Going hiking with your husband because your shared love for the outdoor activities brings you closer together. It is the life you dreamt of. You are the woman of your dreams. Congratulations 🎉