A letter from Nov 2nd, 2021

Dear FutureMe, what are you doing right now? Did you assume enough to live the life you yearned for each night? Is it satisfying where you are now? I’m feeling sort of nervous.. anxious even writing this. I think it’s from the lack of knowing.. are you alive? You see , these doubts and fears they .. they bother me almost every night. I’m trying so hard to just believe and keep the faith but ****.. life just gets so overwhelming sometimes. So please tell me , you’re doing okay right? You’re doing better than okay yes? Please , please tell me that you’re walking on the grass and you’re seeing more sunny days then cloudy days. Please tell me that you’re in your happiest state right now , please be different than me. Please live better than i have , please live. I love you. Give me a hug if you’re reading this , whisper to your heart and I’ll hear it. Stay safe , i love you.