A letter from Oct 30th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Believe it or not ive worked for five days today and realized that ive got Rm435 in my account. Ive figured out this and that about my job and still trying to fit in. Never knew anything bout shipping cargo but now ive already in charged for booking vessel. I remember how i broke down crouching weeping like a 6y/o thinking that everything is going on a wrong way. But now the puzzle starting to find its place. Long way to see the finish picture but i know that it would be beautiful. But honestly i hate where im at life right now. Its funny how i let anybody tells me what to do. To choose the path for me...For my own life, while my 22 y/o old self just sat there nodding like a maneki neko hands. Its always a yes and regretted it afterwards. Hope that you finally able to steer your life wheel again. Just saying that whenever you feel like you are on a rough path of your life...or at times where you feel like giving up and crying again in silent, i will be here hugging you, comforting you. Close your eyes and listen to yourself. Feel your warm hug, pat your head saying all the good words. Saying things like "We ve been through this before, even worse. I know that we can go through this again" or "Go ahead cry. Its not your fault." Also, i hope that i could finally reach someone hands and feel the warm hug that ive longed for.💜💜