A letter from Oct 27th, 2021

Dear future Laura, It has already been 5 years that you finally decided to make the move that will have changed your life forever (and hopefully for the best)! Do you remember, on that day of may the 23rd, when, tired of being uncomfortable with who you were, you decided to finally allow yourself to be the women you always were meant to be? I remember it and it was a very hard decision to make and you were still so lost with all of that. You spoke to your psychologist about your thoughts of maybe, potentially transitioning on that day, and it made you feel so much better… you knew you had to do it! Then, from that point everything went so fast! You came out to your family the next week, and to everyone in the next few months. What a journey you’ve been through! Remember that first time you painted your nail how good it felt? The first time you tried makeup, the first time you shaved and got rid of that disgusting beard, or even the first time you wore a dress? You felt like the prettiest girl in the world, or maybe even in the universe, and more importantly, you finally felt like you were yourself! Yet times are still rough as i am writing this letter… You’re still waiting for your medical appointment in hope to start hormone replacement therapy and you suffer a lot from that wait because of how uncomfortable your body feels. I just hope that everything is better for you now, that you doesn’t suffer from that dysphoria anymore. I hope you finally were able to medically transition like you wished for so long and that it got rid of your pain. I guess sometimes i can’t help but wonder what you look like now, but anyway, I just hope that you are happy now! Your past self, Laura Rose P.