A letter from Oct 26th, 2021

Dear Future Evie Hey *****! (This is long oh boy) (This'll probably be a nightmare to read I'm so sorry) You're *legally* and adult now? How does that feel? Probably not very good tbh. Alright but I've got a big question for you. If you could meet me right now, would you beat me up? I'll paint the picture for you here: Would you ******* me, sitting here in my omori t shirt, fAiRyCoRe hot topic earrings, e-girl choker and bottlecap pins. Me, sitting here with a kurtis conner video playing in the background and promised neverland fanfiction open in the other tab? (I'm being SUPER specific cause I want you to sufer tehe ;)) Cause like I sure as hell would ******* me from 5 years ago dear god. 8 year old me was wild. She was living the life though, so I can't hate her. Lets say say, hypothetically you do decide to beat me up, how would you do it? Ej has a pintrest board with a bunch of funky weapons on it, maybe you could chose one of those? I'm honestly a huge fan of either the pastel bat or the angel baby knife. I think that'd be a fantastic way to die. speaking of ej, are you two still dating? As much as I'd love to believe that you are, I honestly kind of doubt that a relationship between two 13 year olds would last that long :( which makes me really sad, since I love him a lot. Like a lot a lot. Being able to talk to him honestly is one of the reasons I'm glad I'm alive (And I'm not saying that bc I'm suicidal or something, it's just sometimes hard to find motivation to live, y'know). That and the promised neverland lmao. I was about to say sorry for mentioning tpn twice, but at the same time this is MY letter, and you already know I make my interests my whole personality. Speaking of, are you still into tpn? Probably not. In that case, go reread and stan Ayshe 😩. What other piece of media have you made your entire personality? I'm honestly really curious. I feel like someday I'll be able to some how string ever thing I've ever been obsessed with together and find out.... something about my mind idk. Are you still friends with Sophie or did she leave you for her boys. I know that she's over Mathew now (thank goddddd) and now likes Noah. Noah seems a lot nicer (and less ugly tbh) than him, but I still can't help but feeling a little bit jealous. Not because I want to date her (I already have someone much better <3), but it just makes me feel a little bit sad how she's much more invested in her friendship with them than with me. Maybe I'm just being jealous. Alright now for the more serious question. Aka the one I'll probably be writing the least about haha. What's your job? Or, I guess you'll probably still be in college rn (that is if you even go to college). But what job are you planning on having? Are you going to become an artist? A writer? Do you even like doing those things anymore? God the thought of you not doing those things anymore honestly kind of scares me. Change is scary. But if you aren't pursing either of those jobs, don't pressure yourself to do those jobs just because your 13 year old self told you to. The most important thing I have to tell you is to love yourself. Don't ever think that you aren't worthy of love, because you sure as **** are. Don't ever forget that Anyways, I'll shut up now, I hope the rest of our life is great. We deserve it -Evie :)