IF I HAVE DIED READ THE FOLLOWING, IF NOT DON'T READ.

Dear Kayla, your my favorite person in the whole world, I would never say it to your face or anyone but its very much implied and I can't bust your ego. I hate that the main topic we have to discuss is over when we die but this is important, I need you to hear these words. my time on earth isn't garnered for long, and I pray you dint have to go through my *****, EVER, and I never yours but we are bound to one day. for what it is worth, you have made my time more enjoyable and fun, I couldn't have asked for a better friend and overall sister from another mother. the times we see each other are scarce since you moved states and its like a whole another world away. you saved me in unimaginable ways that I can't express my gratitude for. a little about me so you can never forget, my favorite color is yellow, fav song is 'falling apart' by Michael Schulte, the best books I've ever read have to be "it ends with us", by Colleen Hoover, "song of achilles", by Madeline miller, and "the invisible life of Addie Laure", by V.B Schwab. It is three days away from my 16th birthday, you won't get this letter till 2 years after we graduate school and are in college by the time but I want to know you receive my words in one way. I can't wait for the day you get a partner and I can act all rude and tough to them and call them 'mike' till they deserve their true name or something offensive only I would probably get so they can work up to EARN their rightful name! ;) if by the time you do get the unfortunate news by my passing soon or one day, try to celebrate my life, I want loads and tons of sunflowers and people wearing yellow and bright colorations at my funeral, I want my favorite songs and playlist played, I want joy and happiness spread by the time I've had on earth letting people think of the happy positive times, not the hard-breaking times a funeral brings. I want you to also do a favor for me, if I am gone go to Victoria, Jenna, Ella, everyone else that I know will take it harder (including yourself) and sit around, be together and think of good memories not sad ones, because so help me I will come down and haunt you all till you live up to my standards lol. when I die I want you to have my books, the box under my bed of treasure I cherish most from overlooked items, and my journals, do as you wish with everything else, burn my phone and delete all the records of all that lives on it before I go through, my family doesn't need to see nor know about those things! in case you need these words, 'such it up buttercup, life goes on. pain lives in every-way, shape, and form, I WANT YOU to be happy' I'm not saying forget me completely but I give you 2 weeks of morning at most before you have to try to go out and adventure for me, explore the world, do everything I dreamed of, meet the love of your life, play and instrument, smile, laugh, do it all. I can't take sad, I can't take watch everyone. love crash and go into a slump. do what you need to smile, don't fall from my passing. I'm human, its in our nature to pass one day, I know thats harsh but I need you to try and get out there. I love you, you can do it, you'll get through it! Anyway, until next time!!! -GG.