Do you still remember of who am i?

Hey, how are you? are you still alive? or do i still alive? i don't know if i should write as you were a different person, it's just me after all. I have so many questions, let's start with some idiot ones: -Our favorite book still being Vicious by V.E. Schwab? -Do we have a great relationship with THEM? -How many books do we have? -We really learn japanese? (don't be embarrassed, i know that we probably just stoped trying. But if the answer is "yes", I'M SO ******* PROUD OF US) -Do we know how to speak in english? (btw i'm sorry, this certainly will have many things wrong) -Did i finish those comics that i start writing? okay, now let's talk about some sad stuff. I am trying my best to still alive, its being hard y'know, so please make all my hard work worth it. It can sound a little bit selfish, must be hard for you too, because we are the same person, don't matter how many time have pass or how much we change. i will do my best to handle it for us, but i'm sorry I am very sorry if i give up; "—No fundo a eternidade não dura mais que um segundo" "-I feel empty to be full of this life." Don't forget what your dear character said, use this fire that is burning our heart to kept us of falling apart. If this work, you're probably reading this on our 18th birthday Happy birthday :) Good luck, we will need a lot -Still giving all that i can, signed: yourself, just a stupid child (that really needs help) But if something bad happened, it was nice while it lasted, right? it hurts, see you soon, or not