A letter from Oct 20th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Oct 20 2021 is one of my my worst day. These days I've been busy it is cause of school works. Ugh I have too many missing school works that I just don't know how to start or what, how to do them. I couldn't pick up any instructions that teachers gave me, like literal even the projects idk how to do them , it just my mind can't process them plus I have no one in my school that I can ask for those kinds of stuff. I have this one project that is due this Friday and idk how to do them, I've been crying for minutes cause I realized how dumb I was for not knowing how to be creative, like I watched half of my school mates video presentation and it made me asked myself where did I go wrong? Why am I so dumb? Am I really that dumb? Idk how did they do that , how to be creative i can't even understand the instruction for this project ( video presentation) I am scared for my grade , if I couldn't submit my project for AP this Friday just don't expect to get a great grade. I have never been this worried for my acads The fact that we're still using online class makes it more difficult for me to get a good grades. The project is ( make a video presentation about " INTERNATIONAL YEAR OF CREATIVE ECONOMY FOR SUBSTAINABLE DEVELOPMENT) bro idk anymore Well ig I just won't submit that project And oh tmrw I'm gonna go to school to submit my activities wish myself luck !!!?!! And oh haha I have to go to school by myself cuz I don't have friends haha I have many many missing activities 😭😭 I have to make cubic art, and poster making For my Mapeh subject, Any line drawing that caught my attention, make my own brand logo(business logo) For TLE subject, Make jingle for my music Performance task, and I need to film myself dancing to wellness for my PE Performance task, A plate boundary using any material for my science subject, and I have 2 missing essay for my English subject idek how to do essay !!!😭 And it's all due next Thursday ( Oct. 28,2021) I don't even know how to draw, how am I gonna do them ??? I have no motivation Or even a motivation to watch a YouTube tutorial on how to make essay !!! I never expected that year 10 is gonna be this difficult and stressful. !!!